Another reblog from Martin Upfold….

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Woke up this morning feeling low, agitated and full of angst for no apparent reason.

The highs and lows of being bipolar are a pain. It’s like having a Mr Jeykll and Dr Hyde personality.

The lows are insular, dark and introverting where I want to harm myself.  Selfish thoughts of suicide creep in.  I fantasise about doing away with my self in various ways.  From hanging myself to an overdose of meds to stepping into traffic, the possibilities are endless.  How I counter these thoughts is by thinking about my children, thinking about  my wife, my loved ones and friends.  Imagining how my not being here would impact on them all.  Asking if I would want another man bringing up my beautiful sons

It’s disturbing to say that there are times I wish to die by my own hand.

When I’m on a high I get racing thoughts and grandiose…

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